How cool was Saturday? it was 12/13/14. I didn’t do much special but it did make my day pretty cool. Well, that’s not true I did an interview as apart of my current blog tour that I hope people are following on with on Twitter. I’m not sure how I feel about the reviews I’m getting. They aren’t bad reviews but just mostly mixed positive. They seem to come down to the personal tastes of the reviewer and I suppose that isn’t terribly surprising. This is an objective business but I just thought my horse was better than it was and as it turns out its not. I suppose I should accept that the book is a solid B+ and be content with that. After all, its the first book and it should mean a lot to me tat its out. After all, its a culmination of getting on the right psychological path which i wasn’t on for some time and its the honesty and strength to try something I thought I would be good at. I guess when I see the almost middle of the road reviews its like being in school and working so damn hard on something that I thought should have been an A but turned out to be a C at best. That’s the reason I didn’t try for a long time. Let’s face its, I’m ashamed of my writing because it reflects on my disability and my own shame when attached to that. I know I’m smart but I don’t ever see that in my work. But what it does tell me that despite everything, that maybe I am doing the right thing and its getting better. If the Freshman work is a three star book then be that way. Its the first novel. No one’s first novel is good. It just gives me room to improve and to move forward.
I hesitate to think that book two is good. I’ve learned a lot from book one and it seems that I know what I’m doing now and that’s all right. The narrative seems to be more streamlined and not as slow moving as book one. However the second I think its better than well its not…such is my karma. That being said, I’m so close to being done I cannot wait because then we’ll start the cycle anew and hopefully have something by the summer.